Blueberry Cheesecake Bites!

Assalamu'alaikum.

Cutting to the chase, here's a recipe for you (in the world of the painfully honest, the recipe's not exactly for you. I'm just typing it up here for safekeeping) that I modified from, well, Buzzfeed. Let's masak masak!

Blueberry Cheesecake Bites (makes 15)

For the base, you'll need:
125g digestive biscuits, finely crushed
4 tbsp. castor sugar
85g melted butter

Method:
1.Mix the digestive crumbs and sugar together.
2. Add butter and mix well.
3. Press the mixture firmly into muffin cups to form a base.
4. Bake at 180 C for 10 minutes.
5. Allow to cool until it hardens.

Moving on to make the cheesecake, you'll need:
8 oz cream cheese
80g plain yoghurt
1/4 cup white sugar
1 egg
1/4 tsp vanilla essence
Blueberry jam for topping

Method:
1. Beat the cream cheese and yoghurt together until soft.
2. Add sugar, egg and vanilla and beat until well blended.
3. Spoon onto the base into the muffin cups.
4. Bake at 180 C for 15 minutes.
6. After cooled, spread blueberry jam generously on top.

Best served chilled :)

Alternative: Spoon jam first onto the base then fill the muffin cup with the cream cheese mixture!

 

p/s : Supposedly cheese layer tu warna yellowish, tapi dan ter'blend'kan jam dalam mixture tu, so end up purplish. Up to you though, still tastes good 😁

Of Deception.

Assalamu'alaikum.

Okay, so I am no poet but here's a little something I made.

Of Deception. 

Intelligent we claim to be
Oblivious that we are tricked to believe and see
All this dunya as the ultimate goal to achieve
Striving for fame and so-called popularity
In the eyes of the public we want to be deemed the symbol of nobility
Despite neglecting our role as a servant of the Almighty
Blinded by the raging yearn for wealth and beauty
In our tiny minds success is determined by where we stand in the social hierarchy
So as the digits in our bank accounts increase in number
Smugly we assume our lives has begun to prosper
Abandoning the fact our arrogance has started growing stronger
Instead meekly feeding our nafs with worldly praise to cure their hunger
Unaware that submission to Him is what the soul truly longs for
You see, to drown in ignorance is a likely situation
Unless we choose to snap out of this state of delusion
Turning to no other but Him to obtain the perfect solution
And escape from falling victim to shaitaan's deception.

Of Beauty Standards

Assalamu'alaikum.

It's like 2 am, 17 days left to PT3, flunking KH yet I'm here.
Mereput depan skrin, bela eyebags and tambahkan power spec.
Memandangkan blog ni dah berkurun tak ada entry baru, so why not?

Of Beauty Standards.

Probably ada yang dah pernah tengok a quite old Matluthfi video yang bertajuk 'bukan semua cantik subjektif'. If you haven't, you may tengok cuz I dah baik hati tampal kat sini.

 

Anyway. 

Apa Malaysian punya beauty standards? 

Secara general, kau lawa kalau: 

Kulit putih. 

Especially muka. Lagi putih lagi lawa. Ketika mat salleh sibuk dedahkan kulit under sinaran UV coz kejar tan, Malaysians kejar skin tone Edward Cullen. If guys yang sawo matang macam acceptable lagi, konon selalu jog tengah panas cause omigosh so athletic macho sado whatsoever. However, girls kalau gelap sikit terus chop kau budak hitam berdaki tak cantik.  

Hidung mancung. 

Don't have a clue why. Mancung seludang tak mau, nak mancung tirus. Macam mat salleh. 

Mata besar. 

Mata besar terkelip-kelip like Syasya Solero. Eyelashes kena 30 degrees pakai Revlon. Lagi lawa kalau pakai contacts biru. Naturally lawa, nak mata brown. 

Kurus. 

Haters gonna hate tapi you can't deny orang slim nampak lawa. Not keding, but appropriate weight. Underweight sikit pun orang suka. Even if ideal tapi on the heavier side, orang akan cakap "Ohh yang comel-comel tu eh? Kalau kecik sikit lagi lawa kan?" 

Kalau perhatikan, the first three attributes tu menjadi idaman.
Tapi secara general, orang Melayu ni memang kulit sawo matang, hidung pesek sikit, mata agak sepet. 

Not all, but kalau sebut Melayu, biasa tu la descriptionnya. 

Kenapa nak kejar beauty standards yang tak bertepatan dengan norma masyarakat kita? 

Kenapa agungkan mat salleh? 

Even budak-budak pun dan sebati dengan these standards. 

Masa tu I asked my 7-year-old sister, saje-saje je tanya, "Are you cute?" 

Dia jawab apa? 

"No, because when I looked into the mirror, my skin is not white." 

Then dia cakap ada kawan dia, very cute. 

"Muka dia putih. And her eyelashes were very long."  

I'm guilty as well. 

Semua orang pun dah diterapkan dengan mentaliti ni. 

Yang penting, we appreciate ourselves. 

Tapi kena la jadi the best version of ourselves. 

Jaga penampilan, berpakaian kemas dan menutup aurat, jaga akhlak. 

Mungkin suara saya yang kerdil ini tak kan mampu mengubah pemikiran seluruh bangsa. 

Never mind then. 

Kita ubah diri kita sendiri, jangan mudah judge orang. 

Don't be too hard on ourselves. 

Rasa insecure tu bukannya tak normal. 

As long as it's not what dominates your mind. 

Smile, kan naik seri tu :) 

Hey you. 

You're beautiful ;) 

Of Couples

Assalamu'alaikum!

Dah lama perasan sebenarnya, dan agak curious. Ternampak masa scroll Facebook, satu group yang dinamakan Jom Couple. Klik. Tiada niat nak join, sekadar nak find out tahap mana dah anak dara anak teruna Melayu ni.

Terkedu.

So I dug around a bit more and found out that:

1. Group macam ni bukan sikit. 
2. Peculiarly, a lot of these groups are closed groups. 
3. Most of the teens in these groups go under alien names, contohnya yang ada Lahhh, Evan's dan Ucux kat nama diorang.  
4. Among the group names are: Jom Couple, :: Couple Biarr Satu, Scanndall Biarr Ramaii <3 :3, Couple is Trouble but Fun, Single Jom Couple, Jom Couple Nak? dan lain-lain.   
5. Salah satu daripada group tu melarang ahlinya post gambar tidak menutup aurat/seksi/free hair/ berbaju lengan pendek, siap ada notis SEGALA DOSA YANG BERLAKU ADALAH TANGGUNGJAWAB SENDIRI.  
6. Kebanyakan group meletakkan syarat ahlinya mesti sporting dan happening, whatever that means.   
7. ID WeChat bersepah-sepah.

Antara the posts: 

  

•  nak cari bf hok setia ada? 
• Sp taken Say Hi
  Sp single Say Hello
  Me Hello :)  
• Sapa sini single? Mama sy nk buat menantu.   

Firman Allah s.w.t.  

"Dan janganlah kamu mendekati zina; (zina) itu sungguh suatu perbuatan keji, dan suatu jalan yang buruk." (Al Isra', 17:32)   

Kenapa nak couple at such a you age? 

Apa untungnya? 

I'm not talking about suka seseorang. Itu lumrah. 

Tapi yang nak menggatal ni apa manfaatnya? 

Terlebih tengok drama. 

Teringin nak ada hubungan macam dalam novel. 

Comel katanya. 

Sweet katanya. 

Malam-malam bergayut. 

Siang-siang berdating.  

Belanja belikan hadiah mahal-mahal. 

Kenapa nak couple? 

Suka, ada lelaki cakap dia cantik. 

Puji dia lawa.  

Rasa disayangi, rasa appreciated. 

Don't. 

Just don't. 

Views

Assalamu'alaikum dahlings.

A famous saying:

Yet in life, we don't disagree on the different ways of solving simple equations.
It's way complicated than that. It's like.. like..
Yes. Quadratic equations.

x² -5x + 6                                  2x² -10x + 12 
x = 2                                                x = 2 
x = 3                                         x = 3

Sama jawapannya, tapi cara berbeza. But let's say orang first kata jawapannya 2, and orang second kata jawapannya 3. Dua-dua betul, tapi in the real world, tak ada siapa-siapa kata oh hi people this is a quadratic equation so there are two answers no. Kalau ada pun, kita ego.

"Mana boleh. Jawapan mesti ada satu je. And the answer's 2."
"Mana ada. Jawapannya 3 la. Cara kau salah!"

And the fight goes on and on.

Nampak macam bodoh, tapi that's reality.
Kejahilan itu api, dan ego itu minyaknya.

Rasa macam diri dah betul, dan tak nak terima idea orang lain.
Idea orang lain salah.
Kalau betul pun, idea aku lagi bagus.

Most of the answers in life aren't like Maths.
Most of the time, the answers are subjective.
Lagi banyak jawapan.
Lagi banyak pergaduhan.  

But still, there's wrong answers.
Ada jalan kerja yang silap.
Not everything's right.

Macam mana? Kena open minded terima jawapan dan jalan kerja orang, tapi ada yang betul,
ada yang salah. Complicated.

Tapi kita kan ada manual book?
Qur'an :)

Reality Check

Assalamu'alaikum.

It's like 2.51 a.m. but tiba-tiba rasa macam nak blogging cuz this blog is like really bersawang. Kesian the people that actually read this blog, um ada ke? I don't think so.

So. Reality Check.
According to UrbanDictionary yang tak berapa nak reliable, reality check is defined as a word or phrase used to bring a person back into the life of those around them, sometimes used to smash hopes and dreams.
The thing is, I'm badly in need of a reality check. Why? Cause I'm that stuck up. It's like I just need someone to scream "Kau fikir kau bagus sangat ke?" at me.

One of the most common questions kat ask.fm is permintaan untuk describe. The truth is tak ada sesiapa yang sampai hati untuk describe sejujurnya. There are times I just wish I could like read peoples' minds to know what they actually think of me, but I know I won't get the answers that I want.

I'm not the nicest girl on the planet.
Nor am I the most caring
And I make lots of wrong choices in life.

Kadang-kadang when I see people doing nice, considerate things, I'd be like, would I actually do that if I was in they're shoes? Tengok What Would You Do and I was like, I would actually be the one running away. Why? Because I run away from problems, I don't solve them. I keep hoping that someone else would clean up my mess, and usually there are people like that.

Kadang-kadang, I'm like an X-ray.
Kesalahan orang sentiasa nampak.
Diri sendiri?    

Sombong, dasar manusia sombong.
Judgemental.
Perasan bagus.

The most stupid thing?
Sedar semua ni
Tapi tak berubah.

I've tried, God knows, I've tried.
But it's not working.
Selalu tersungkur balik.
Sebab tak ada pendirian.
Dan usaha pun, tak gigih.

Those times when I know I'm doing something wrong,
Yet I still do it.  
Those times when I see something wrong
Yet I don't do anything about it.

I'm afraid of the truth.

Bila kena batang hidung sendiri,
Bila diri sendiri kena aniaya,
Rasa macam everyone is so inconsiderate.
Tak sedar,
Diri sendiri tu pun pernah aniaya orang.

Kau fikir cool sangat ke jadi sarkastik melebih?
Kau tak fikir orang lain terasa.  

I want someone to scream
STOP IT.
You're not the smartest in the world
You're not the nicest in the world
You're surely not the prettiest in the world
Nor are you the best daughter
Nor are you the best friend
Nor are you the best Muslim
And it's about time you realised that.

Bila fikir balik, baru sedar. Sakit bila sedar.

I'm used to getting what I want.
You know what's bad about that?
I don't realise yang tak confirm aku terlepas dari segala azab kubur, azab neraka.

I need a reality check.
I really do.

A Tribute to Einsteinium 1317.

Assalamu'alaikum.

Someone decided to stream the classes. The classes yang the members had build a strong bond between the members, the classes which the members loved each other walaupun menyampah tahap gaban sekali pun, the classes which had members who were united in everything.

Sekarang?

You'll say you're always gonnaa be an Einsteinium with all your heart. But the reality is, when time passes, those would only be words. You won't be a pure Einsteinium 1317 anymore. No one would. Even if they decide next year we can get back to our original classes, it won't be the same. Even though we're still in the same batch, the same college, it won't. It just won't.

So while the love for Einsteinium 1317 is still warm, while the longing for us to reunite in one class again is still piercing, while the wounds are still bleeding, allow me to write a tribute to the genius sleepy heads of the most quiet class in Loistava XI: Einsteinium 1317. This is to:

The ever-caring, lovely Ms. Nurul Munirah Safian.
The gentleman of a president, Iskandar Damierel.
The responsible, garang vice president, Hasya 'Aqilah.
The little, immature kitty-cat, Ain Sofeah.
The Sven-loving Taylor Lautner, Aliff Addin.
The quiet, shy Aliyyah Syafiqah.
The sharp-tongued goal-keeper, Amir Harith.
The focused, diligent panda, Amirah Natasya.
The petite, gedik-in-an-adorable-way Anis Suraya.
The naive, innocent twin, Hanin Dayani.
The crazy, bold, MCR fan, Hazirah Adlina.
The adorable, squeaky Bruno Mars, Iskandar Dzulkarnain.
The math-freak of a duck, Izwan Mohni.
The drunk square-headed Adud, Muhd Haziq.
The singing sleepy-head, Faiq Irfan.
The overexcited-but-patient librarian, Muhd Irfan.
The jiwang sweet-talker, Syahir Yusli.
The college taiko, Nur Iffah.
The dramatic debater, Izny Hidayati.
The selamba, direct Nurfarahin.
The sweet, kind-hearted Najwa Afiqah.
The straight-forward unexpected Aisyah Masrudin.
The slightly-annoying-but-actually-really-nice Syazwi.

The memories will sooner or later fade, leaving nothing but faint scars etched in my heart. But for now, I'll cherish whatever I can grasp:

Singing Anak Malaysia like crazy on the stage during Merdeka
Painting Japanese flags for UNGA
Playing Truth or Dare in class
Pranking each other during birthdays
Cheering until our throats hurt during tuju selipar
Painting the banner for Salvation Version II
Admiring our fab class board
Simply being our crazy selves who automatically become quiet in class

Dear Einsteinium 1317,
I love you.

dileraikan ikatan
dicarikkan hubungan
diretakkan persahabatan
benar?
benar, kalau kau iyakan
salah, kalau kau tidakkan
kalau kau perjuangkan
kalau kau teguhkan
ikatan kita
Einsteinium 1317.

Selamat maju jaya.