#prayforMH370

Assalamu'alaikum.

That's it.
They finally found it.
Under the sea, crashed under the waves, in the deep deep South Indian Ocean.
It all happened, all of a sudden.
Don't question, coz Allah dah berfirman,
Kun fayakun.
The youngest passenger was reported to be two years old.
Just two years old.
Dahlah, kita pun tak tahu bila hari kita.
Bertaubatlah and that includes me.
My condolences for the friends and family of the victims.
Quoted from Maira Elizabeth Nari, daughter of ketua pramugara Andrew Nari,
We love you, but He loves you more.

Al-Faatihah.
Amin.

Kena Rampas.

 

I really really really want my MP3 back.  

Baru lagi kot. 

//padanmukasiapasuruhbawapergiprep//

Fat.

Assalamu'alaikum.

I've decided to delete loads of crap that's on my blog. Lame habis. Dahlah dah tiga bulan tak update coz memang dah three months since I last came home. Yeah, stuck on an island for three months. Jetjet terseksa je, actually maktab life is awesomesauce so I don't really mind.

Back to the title. FAT. 

 

I've encountered people like this a lot in my life. Dahlah ada thigh gap, boleh pulak mengaku gemuk. Itu sesungguhnya meminta reunion antara my foot and her face. #lawakhambar  

Guys keep making fun of girls coz they're crazy about wanting to be skinny // super thin // etcetera.  

Girls including me. 

Yes, I iz gemoks. BMI said so. Tak adalah obese, tapi at the very end of ideal. To a girl, that is considered gemoks. Baju raya two years back pun tak muat coz ketat. The whole wardrobe kena tukar. Memang many girls takut gemuk and obses dengan keinginan nak kurus. You know why? 

Lelaki suka sangat ejek perempuan takut gemuk. But honestly, as a guy with desires, would you really honestly want a fat chick? Media sendiri dah momokkan kepada kita yang fat is ugly, skinny is pretty. Siap ada term sendiri - thinspiration, interpreted as "inspirations on how to be thin". This thing is really happening. 

I've seen fat (like, the really overweight) people being ridiculed, taunted, laughed at. They're the laughing stock of the society. Kalau ada artis badan naik, 40 hari 40 malam jadi bual bicara orang. Take Pitch Perfect, betapa Fat Amy tu dijadikan bahan lawak. And you want to question where aneroxia came from. 

Cosmopolitan made a remark on a "plus-sized" model. Model tu elok je kurus, cuma tak sampai tahap nampak tulang je. Rasa BMI dia tu tak sampai 20 pun. Take Barbie dolls, the icon // benchmark of beauty. Kurus kedengkiang. What if they made dolls like this? 

 

Almost all the time, terdetik, "aku nak kurus." Puih. Riadah tak mau, makan banyak, ada hati nak kurus. In yo dreams la sayang. Lagi-lagi bila sedara-mara komen, "dah gemuk." "what happened?" "wah wah double chin" "bahagia ke makan kat langkawi?" "emmm dah lain la" buat rasa insecure, fobia nak jumpa kengkawan lama. 

So what if I'm fat? Looks don't matter, what's inside is important! Di sisi Allah, yang penting taqwa. Yes, absolutely. Tapi nak hidup dekat dunia with all the imperfect humans with shallow minds (that includes me and excludes some people) actually looks do matter.  

  

Not really desperate for love at first sight or anything. Seriously. But you know, first impression, society's perception yada yada yada. It matters. It really does. 

Mia will try to lose weight, I guess? *sambil makan chipsmore*